Fluidity By Dean Thorpe

Fluidity

I want to tell you a tale
Of someone not quite male or female
When I get up each morning
While all the others are still yawning
I am struggling to know
If it's a girl or boy that will show
It's because inside my head
Is a mixture of genders instead
Part male, part female, part none
It's not something i'm choosing for fun
I cannot choose it at all
I just have to get up and stand tall
Knowing a girl is inside
Maybe a boy not wanting to hide
I am not mad or crazy
Not picking a genders not lazy
Some days I really am male
But others so completely female
Most days it's more of a mix
It's not a problem I want to fix
Please tell me who does it hurt
If some days I need to wear a skirt
I am open about it
Always happy to talk about it
All I want is to be free
To be whichever I need to be
I feel so lucky to know
My partner loves me whoever shows
My partner does understand
That it's not something I ever planned
Proud to have her by my side
Now my true self never has to hide
Dean Thorpe
A very female looking Dean Thorpe

About this poem

This is an open and honest poem about me being Genderfluid! I class myself as 30% female, 20% male an 50% none of the above, but being gender fluid unlike Transgender people who often feel that gender 24/7 I do change from hour to hour sometimes!!! I can wake up feeling male, by lunch time feel neither male or female, a couple of hours later very female and then before bed a mixture of the two! It's not something I want, like in the morning I fancy weetabix, but by lunch time I fancy a sandwich! This is a complete change of how I feel inside, I NEED to be male sometimes, feeling uncomfortable in anything feminine, but later I NEED to be female, having gender dysphoria, disliking my male body and wearing anything male feels so completely wrong, as if I'm wearing fancy dress!!! This has nothing to do with sexuality, I know genderfluid people who are straight, genderfluid people who are gay etc. Gender is something you feel / know, like feeling hot or cold! If it's freezing cold and somebody tells you that you are warm it doesn't make it so, you know you are cold!!! That's how I feel, I know I was born male, I except that, some people tell me I am male, but when I feel female every part of my mind and body is screaming out that I AM female and I can't accept being male any more than somebody telling me it's hot when I'm covered in ice!!! I am very proud to be part of the LGBT community.


Summary
  1. Her notepad poems: Introduction
  2. Her notepad poems: Being free to be me
  3. Her notepad poems: Big metal box
  4. Her notepad poems: Blue lights in the mirror
  5. Her notepad poems: Christmas thoughts
  6. Her notepad poems: Cold and grey in the UK
  7. Her notepad poems: Colours of my life
  8. Her notepad poems: Computers are a pain
  9. Her notepad poems: Concept of happiness
  10. Her notepad poems: Crowds all around me
  11. Her notepad poems: Eh Ju Kay Shon
  12. Her notepad poems: Evil people around us
  13. Her notepad poems: Exploring the woods
  14. Her notepad poems: Feel the pain
  15. Her notepad poems: Feeling alone
  16. Her notepad poems: Fluffy little tails
  17. Her notepad poems: Fluidity / genderfluid
  18. Her notepad poems: Free school parking
  19. Her notepad poems: Frozen moment in time
  20. Her notepad poems: Gay Pride
  21. Her notepad poems: Going to Disneyland Paris
  22. Her notepad poems: Hand beside me
  23. Her notepad poems: I hate you
  24. Her notepad poems: Illusion of life
  25. Her notepad poems: Just another dumb animal
  26. Her notepad poems: Life of a photographer
  27. Her notepad poems: Life of a snowflake
  28. Her notepad poems: Light from another world
  29. Her notepad poems: Lurking in the darkness
  30. Her notepad poems: Maybe I am going mad
  31. Her notepad poems: Mindfulness
  32. Her notepad poems: My first true love
  33. Her notepad poems: Normality
  34. Her notepad poems: Not going mad this Christmas
  35. Her notepad poems: Opening my mind
  36. Her notepad poems: Out there
  37. Her notepad poems: Passion or prayer
  38. Her notepad poems: Perfect man
  39. Her notepad poems: Psyonic dreams
  40. Her notepad poems: Raindrops on the window
  41. Her notepad poems: Red is the colour of blood
  42. Her notepad poems: Roller coaster rider
  43. Her notepad poems: Second by second
  44. Her notepad poems: Side effect of Doctors
  45. Her notepad poems: Storm
  46. Her notepad poems: Strange creatures
  47. Her notepad poems: Stranger beside me
  48. Her notepad poems: Sugar excess
  49. Her notepad poems: Tick and the tock
  50. Her notepad poems: Trapped in the Summer
  51. Her notepad poems: Trust in terror media
  52. Her notepad poems: Watching death poem
  53. Her notepad poems: Westwood House
  54. Her notepad poems: When I grow up
  55. Her notepad poems: When munchies attack
  56. Her notepad poems: Why I go to Pride
  57. Her notepad poems: Why me